Alright.. kinda getting sick of regurgitating this over and over..(not that I don't love talking to you guys....it's just getting a bit repetitive) soooo here goes:

 

This past month has been a roller coaster ride of emotions. MY (ex) boyfriend and I had been fighting and at one point I had even told him I was done... not going through the bullshit anymore. (He had got into a minor fender bender and rear ended some chick ... and took her out for lunch...who does that???) So anyway.. I didn’t think I could get over that... that’s just not something you do… but I fell for his bullshit lies and a few days ago we were back together like nothing had happened.

 

Well stupid me again. I was at his house and wanted to check my email. He has dial-up Internet and I couldn’t figure out how to get the damn thing connected. I clicked on the Internet Explorer icon… nothing... on his execulink icon... nothing. So I clicked on the outlook icon and it connected. And what do I see? A ton of emails back and forth to some chick saying he loves her and can’t wait to see her again… and whenever she’s ready to come and visit him he’ll have all her accommodations taken care of... she can stay with him as long as she likes…..WTF IS THAT?? So naturally I’m fucking pissed…but can’t stop reading..

 

I find out that he has also been talking to another chick and actually had a folder for HER emails! And he signed up to a dating site yesterday. I’m beyond pissed at this point. Good thing he wasn’t there or God knows what I would have done. I wasn’t snooping or purposely going through his shit..at least not at first anyway.. It was there staring me in the face when it opened..

 

So needless to say.. we’re done.. I am so sick of getting caught up in relationships that end like this. Is it me? Am I that bad? Am I doing something wrong? Why does this always happen?? I am a strong believer in the old saying that “everything happens for a reason” but I just cannot validate this one.. what purpose could have possibly been behind that?

 

I’m off men.. and relationships.. for good. Think there’s a patch for that? I was thinking of becoming a nun, but it’s since come to my attention that they aren’t even allowed toys. SO I obviously can’t do that.

 

I doubt I’ll be around spaces much for the next little while.. BUT I will get around to you all when I have some time, patience and feel better.

So I had a great weekend!! Got to go boating finally for the first time this season! LOVE IT! There is nothing more calming then the sound of the water is there? I was going to say satisifying...but I can think of a thing or two more "satisfying" haha

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This past week my sis and I decided that since the men in our lives (aka my dad and my bf lol) weren’t available to bbq for us, we would do it ourselves. Now keep in mind that neither of us has EVER bbq’d… let alone started one…I’m sure you can see already where this is heading :S

 

Sooo… here we are clicking all the knobs.. then my sis pipes up and says “hey, shouldn’t we maybe turn the propane on?” Hmm…good thinking, yeah let’s do that!! So we’re looking at it.. neither of us knew which way to turn it.. (We are girls, cut us some slack ) We decide it must be off so we crank it the opposite way. Now comes the fun part.. how do we light this son of a bitch? We’re turning all the little knobs …nothing’s happening. What can we possibly be doing wrong? We inspect the bbq a little closer and find that there are instructions, RIGHT ON IT! Score!!

 

So, it says to turn the propane off, then on, then turn on all the heat sources, then ignite it… seems fairly easy. We’re clicking away at the igniter trying to get this thing to start.. finally, *WHOOOSH* it lights! Because we had the propane turned on for so long before we actually got it started, the flame that rose out of the bbq was monstrous. We almost lost not only our eyebrows, but our entire faces! lol.. it was quite the spectacle.. So we’re high fiving each other because we felt we just made a huge accomplishment.. the worst was over.. we GOT IT LIT!! Hmm yeah, wrong again. What temp are we supposed to cook this on? What do we put on first? Meat, potatoes or veggies? Arggh.. This is why women DO NOT bbq! It is most definitely a man’s job. (same goes for shoveling, garbage duties, and mowing the lawn..Shit, can you imagine what would happen if we had of tried to start the lawnmower? One of us would have lost a limb for sure!! lol)

 

End result: One burnt bbq

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Soo, I’ve been MIA for awhile now... reason being, I have been feeling like complete shit L I’ve had a killer headache for about 10 days straight now. I did go to the hospital last night, because I don’t have a doctor here yet. The ER doctor was a bit of an idiot and instead of determining the cause of this excruciating pain; he decided to pump me full of pills that didn’t do a damn thing. Then wrote me out a prescription for Tylenol 3 and Naproxen…and further went on to tell me to just mix the two together and hope it helps ease the tension.

I have been keeping pretty busy since I arrived here. This past weekend I took the kids to the fair.. they had a ball. Hit every ride there, and started making the rounds to go on them all again, but we got rained out. Then on Sunday we went boating again for the day… always fun. I love being out on the lake… so relaxing! Tomorrow we are heading to the Toronto Zoo.. should be fun. I can’t wait anyway lol.. the kids are going to love it I’m sure.

Anyhow, here’s the spaces questionnaire… It’s a little late, but at least I did it. I have a ton of comments to return, which I will eventually.. but not sure when. I can’t sit at the computer for very long right now because my head is just aching off of me.

 1.)Is there a person you are embarrassed to tell people you slept with?

 Yes, but he did give me something amazing out of the relationship

 

2.)What was your dream job when you were little??

 Hmm I had so many of em.. but a princess would have been super cool! Lol

 

3.)Do you give a bigger gift for christmas or birthdays?

 I’d say Christmas, although I spoil the hell outta my kids on their birthdays too

 

4.)If you knew a woman that had pizza and porn, but no beer, would you bring your own beer, or tell her to call back when she had beer?

 Lol who made this question? Haha.. I’d tell her to call back when she had beer.. jk :P

 

5.)Would you go out with another spacer anywhere in the world?

 I think we all know the answer to that one…lol one step ahead of ya’s.. I did it already

 

6.)What is your most embarrassing moment?

 I have so many.. hmm the one that sticks out the most is from when I was around 10 I think. We were at Wally World and I was going down a waterslide and my bikini top ended up over my face as I was going down the slide and there was of course, a super cute boy looking up the slide laughing at me …the trauma I endured lol..

 

7.)Do you lie? And what was the biggest lie you told?

 I rarely lie.. and if I do, it’s just a little white one to spare a friend’s feelings.. but usually I just let em have it, whether they wanna hear it or not lol.. the biggest I’ve told.. hmm when I was little I used to tell my sister that our mom said we could do stuff that we weren’t allowed to do.. and so of course, we’d do it and get in trouble ahh.. I was a shit disturber.

 

8.)What is most important? Casual sex or  long-term relationship?

 Casual sex.. jk :P Long term relationship..

 

9.)What’s your favourite movie?

 My favourite movie changes every time I see a new one lol.. the most recent that I really enjoyed was Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. ;)

 

10.)Do you believe in finding your soul mate and do you believe in having a soulmate?

Not sure about this one.. it’s possible I guess.

 

11.)If you had one wish..what would you wish for?

 That my family would never suffer.

 

12.)What do you think is the most important thing in a relationship, right now?

 Honesty, love, respect, and trust.. k that’s more than one.. but whatever :P

 

13.)How do you deal with pain and/or the loss of a close friend or family member?

 I cry, a lot.. but mainly when I’m by myself.. I keep everything bottled up.. if you haven’t noticed lol!

 

14.)f you could be a candy bar what kind would you be?

 Anything that doesn’t have chocolate

 

15.)Tide or Gain?

 I LOVE the smell of Gain

 

16.)Explain why you picked your space name..

 umm self explanatory.. cuz it IS my name lol

 

17.)Name one weird habit you have..

 I have tons.. if I told you em, you wouldn’t talk to me anymore lol

 

18.)If you could go anywhere with anyone of your choice, where would it be and who would it be?

 I would love to take my kids and go to Holland

 

19.) Name something you are extremely thankful for.

 My family.. Without them, I don’t know what I’d do.. They’re always there when I need them.. Love you guys J

 

20.)What is your favourite body part on the opposite sex?

 Hmm I like a nice chest… or butt… or abs… or another part that I don’t think I can mention on here haha.. Just seeing if you’re paying attention :P

 

 

 

 

I am so glad to be home, I miss my mom of course, but I can't even begin to explain how much better I feel being back here in Woodstock. I actually have STUFF to do now! It's great... plus I'm finally getting tanned! Yes! hehe.. Sure didn't see much sun in Sydney at all. Only made it out on the boat once so far though

 

 

 

 

 

First off, sorry about the length... damn, I haven’t done this long of a blog in...well, like ever!  At least I broke it up with pics haha..

 

As most of you know, my mother and I had the chance to meet Crapola at the local bar town days thing that was going on in North Sydney. I think we may have scared him a bit... thanks to me with my big mouth hehe… but if you read my 101, you should have paid extra attention to #56. ;) Anyways, my mother really liked this one car cuz it had a mural on the back of it... she asked Crapola to get a picture of it... so I yelled out, “What’s that ma? You want a pic of who’s rear end?!” Needless to say, she ran away and pretended she didn’t know me... Crapola just stood there in disbelief lol... that was pretty tame... I coulda made it a whole lot more embarrassing haha

 

So onto the ice cream incident... with visuals lol … my mother wanted a pic of my son Ryan and her together, however, he didn’t want to…so here is my mom trying to get him to sit with her…

 

 

And here is what happens when you don’t listen to a screaming child!

 

That’s right, ice cream in your hair, and all down your chest! LOL this was hilarious and I wish it was caught on video... maybe you had to be there...but it was priceless and I don’t care what you think :P lol

 

There were a few other dirty lil stories revealed about my mother as well... but I’ll save those for a rainy day... or until I’m out of Cape Breton and she is no longer able to come to my house and kick my ass  lmao

 

Moving on, this whole moving thing is starting to get on my nerves lol… It’s so aggravating. I cannot wait to be back in Woodstock and all of this to be done and over with! I also just found out that someone is coming here and going to help me take stuff back! Wicked!

 

 

Well I guess this is long enough… I’ve been trying to do a few comments here and there... but I just haven’t had time… I apologize... I will make it to you all once everything is a little less crazy!!  I miss you all and I should be back into the swing of things soon enough… it’s been a hectic week to say the least… some of you know the ups and downs I’ve had, and the ones I still have to overcome before heading to Ontario… thanks for the support and encouraging words… you have no idea how much I needed to hear positive thoughts! I’ll be leaving on Friday and I’ll try and update as soon as I can once I get there… but this will be the last one until then…big hugs to all of ya!

 

I’ll leave ya with this pic of my new belly chain!! I love it!